Balancing Act is my #wellnesswednesday story for those struggling to find their health balance. It’s possible but not until we’re honest with ourselves.
Each time I’d step on the scale, I was silently praying, “Don’t be heavier.” At this point, I had battled my thoughts from “Girl! This is enough!” to “Girl, you’re still beautiful!”
I have a full-time job, part-time college enrollment, a big family, and in pursuit of career goals, I decided I’d add a second, part-time job in the evenings last year.
If you’ve ever seen a juggler add an item while juggling, this is the visual for my life! My spirit animal! I like doing all the things. Although the part-time job had many benefits (I’ll share soon), my health was truly suffering.
Believe me, I tried to make it all work. I started the second job in January but by Summer I knew things were getting out of balance. Instead of maintaining my weight, I was gaining. Instead of sticking to my prepped meals, I was snacking late in the day to keep awake. I was eating again after getting home at 11:15 pm just to stay awake to study through the night.
If that wasn’t bad enough, all those extra calories found a nice comfy home in me because I wasn’t physically active. I work from home for a full-time desk job. My second job was also the same type of work although at an office. Then I’d sit to study at night. I was sitting so much I’d get physical pains in my abdomen, pelvis, hips, calves, and feet! You would think, with all this inactivity that I couldn’t possibly be tired. But I had never felt so exhausted!
I did have bouts of physical activity and getting my act together. I just couldn’t remain consistent because I was valuing my career over my health. Once I admitted that to myself, I made the right choice and stepped down from my second job. I got a health check-up with my primary doctor and was so relieved to find no serious health conditions had formed. “Move more,” she said. I took that as a doctor’s order.
When our life is out of balance, it is because we are placing more value over other activities, people, things, etc. Which actually happens all the time in life. Sometimes that imbalance is temporary. Sometimes our lives adjust to these changes and we carry on. However, this imbalance was causing more harm than health.
I spent this January finding my perfect sleep cycle. I spent February strategizing my college completion plan. This March, I found my balance to incorporate consistent physical exercise. I’m feeling so much better!